Critters System

can now think of number of dreams where some sort of weird bathroom was at centre focus , with one or more of these traits :

• unable to lock door , someone walk in as kossai use toilet - must now deal with social interaction and impart some wise lesson
• bathroom is extremely messy and gross - puddles , used diapers , but too desperate to just hold off
• there is some sort of weird creature - may be friendly , may be hostile , may also just be toilet skitter around

very silly ... very silly indeed .

talk with one of friends yesterday about some shakespeare stuff ( kossai is not very knowledgeable sadly ) and remember actually have game , a midsummer night's choice . fun , silly , maybe also get emotional :P

brief summary : player is noble whose father hope to marry off in political allegiance , so rather choose to run into forest , circumstantially in cross-gender disguise . several romance paths ( one of which is to say no one at all ) , choice of whether to side with humans or faeries , and of course , hijinks . would say full attentive playthrough take probably 1.5 to 2 hours , but can get by quicker once understand gist of story . 

unfortunately there is no non-binary choices of characters - player can choose for 3 characters , but each must be either man or woman . player's personal character choice will also influence 2 other characters . on sweet side , though not sure if consequential , there is scene in which player can reflect on how cross-gender disguise feel - potentially , more comfortable ! 

never really do much with ASMR even though really want to enjoy because just have such specific needs with this stuff , like honestly lucky if even find one that work . 

just today , brain is in weird sludgy state , itch to calm down and trance but too busy to get there without help . right , OK , some kind of unintelligible gibberish ASMR might help - someone's voice , deliberately calm and quiet , but also no meaning that need to focus on .

but quickly find out that also need this to be :

• soft spoken but not all whisper , too much whisper agitate
• low on voiceless plosives ( p/t/k ) and other clicky mouth sounds , those sounds agitate
• not clear enough to distinguish " words " , so nothing that try to mimic language like simlish
• slow and steady with minimal intonation , not try to emulate real casual speech
• solely gibberish ( apart from skippable intro/outro ) rather than switch between

everything that find so far unfortunately tick off one or more of these problem areas , all but one that is by ephemeral rift of all fucking people . maybe just not good enough at keyword searches for this , but would like if possible to find someone else without tasteless and cruel history . for sake of example should probably share video that work well for kossai , so that would be unintelligible doctor by ephemeral rift . 

will probably also help to explain why these things problems , so : HOH , and audio process is big struggle that take up lots of brain power , between follow intonation , distinguish sounds and words from each other , fill in gaps that fail to comprehend , and keep up with pace . 
when brain is sludgy , need to be able to just turn that shit off and keep off - but anything that mimic ( or is ) true language and speech force back on . this is also why can not just use another real language , even one that have no comprehension of , because brain still pick up on these things . 

brain pace around and feel like animal ready to tear out of cage , so ... end up meander around and look at people's decorations . not super big on celebrate halloween personally , but fun to see others get in spirit - decorative times of year always fun times to meander for that reason .

should definitely meander more often , sometimes get so stuck in house just because lack energy for " real " plans , but obviously reach limits that way . 

have funny dream about rediscover some story that write as kid - unfortunately not real - and was all about like , this magical food dimension that would give anything which want , but have to be properly grateful or else fae would eat in return . this story somehow make into newspaper , too ?