mystery box experience
Nov. 3rd, 2025 06:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kossaigo out aimlessly today and resist several silly impulses , but ... give into one .
generally hate everything mystery box toys stand for , and swear promise to selves would not buy one unless whole collection visible on package and every single one appeal . not with intent to start collection , just so know will be happy with any outcome genuinely .
bah , of course minecraft would be what finally break that streak . sort of " help " in this regard that kind of regret part with some of old minecraft toys years ago . so um ... yeah , have squishy little creeper now .
if anything , weirdly kind of happy that break streak - not because this was super amazing absolute need , but because know how that unbox experience feel . always hear how others talk about this stuff , and can reflect on digital gacha game experiences , but physical element of this was lost on kossai . dare say actually kind of overwhelm .
yeah , think if tempt by mystery box toys in future , will stick to video reviews !
generally hate everything mystery box toys stand for , and swear promise to selves would not buy one unless whole collection visible on package and every single one appeal . not with intent to start collection , just so know will be happy with any outcome genuinely .
bah , of course minecraft would be what finally break that streak . sort of " help " in this regard that kind of regret part with some of old minecraft toys years ago . so um ... yeah , have squishy little creeper now .
if anything , weirdly kind of happy that break streak - not because this was super amazing absolute need , but because know how that unbox experience feel . always hear how others talk about this stuff , and can reflect on digital gacha game experiences , but physical element of this was lost on kossai . dare say actually kind of overwhelm .
yeah , think if tempt by mystery box toys in future , will stick to video reviews !
dream journal ~ bathrooms
Nov. 2nd, 2025 11:35 amkossaican now think of number of dreams where some sort of weird bathroom was at centre focus , with one or more of these traits :
- unable to lock door , someone walk in as kossai use toilet - must now deal with social interaction and impart some wise lesson
- bathroom is extremely messy and gross - puddles , used diapers , but too desperate to just hold off
- there is some sort of weird creature - may be friendly , may be hostile , may also just be toilet skitter around
A Fundamental Conversation
Nov. 2nd, 2025 07:04 amphormthevixdjinn"You've been there?"
"Certainly."
"... Like, willingly?"
"Sometimes yes, sometimes no."
"Could you go there right now?"
"It would take a considerable amount of energy to pull back the facade and slip down there, but yes. I could. If I find myself in an urgent situation, that is how I move between points in the physical world."
"Wait, huh?? You mean you go in there one place, then come out here in another?"
"It is less of a corporeal or embodied process once you are 'in' there, but roughly, yes."
"I didn't realize that they were connected, here and there."
"How could you not?"
"I don't know! I've only been there once, and I was halfway certain it was a dream afterward. I don't even know how I got there - I just remember a lot of falling. And... and feeling..."
"Yes, feeling. That would be the primary function."
"Huh?"
( Conversation Continues... )
"Certainly."
"... Like, willingly?"
"Sometimes yes, sometimes no."
"Could you go there right now?"
"It would take a considerable amount of energy to pull back the facade and slip down there, but yes. I could. If I find myself in an urgent situation, that is how I move between points in the physical world."
"Wait, huh?? You mean you go in there one place, then come out here in another?"
"It is less of a corporeal or embodied process once you are 'in' there, but roughly, yes."
"I didn't realize that they were connected, here and there."
"How could you not?"
"I don't know! I've only been there once, and I was halfway certain it was a dream afterward. I don't even know how I got there - I just remember a lot of falling. And... and feeling..."
"Yes, feeling. That would be the primary function."
"Huh?"
( Conversation Continues... )
a midsummer night's choice
Nov. 1st, 2025 11:42 amkossaitalk with one of friends yesterday about some shakespeare stuff ( kossai is not very knowledgeable sadly ) and remember actually have game , a midsummer night's choice . fun , silly , maybe also get emotional :P
brief summary : player is noble whose father hope to marry off in political allegiance , so rather choose to run into forest , circumstantially in cross-gender disguise . several romance paths ( one of which is to say no one at all ) , choice of whether to side with humans or faeries , and of course , hijinks . would say full attentive playthrough take probably 1.5 to 2 hours , but can get by quicker once understand gist of story .
unfortunately there is no non-binary choices of characters - player can choose for 3 characters , but each must be either man or woman . player's personal character choice will also influence 2 other characters . on sweet side , though not sure if consequential , there is scene in which player can reflect on how cross-gender disguise feel - potentially , more comfortable !
brief summary : player is noble whose father hope to marry off in political allegiance , so rather choose to run into forest , circumstantially in cross-gender disguise . several romance paths ( one of which is to say no one at all ) , choice of whether to side with humans or faeries , and of course , hijinks . would say full attentive playthrough take probably 1.5 to 2 hours , but can get by quicker once understand gist of story .
unfortunately there is no non-binary choices of characters - player can choose for 3 characters , but each must be either man or woman . player's personal character choice will also influence 2 other characters . on sweet side , though not sure if consequential , there is scene in which player can reflect on how cross-gender disguise feel - potentially , more comfortable !
Some new(?) tutorial links
Oct. 31st, 2025 10:35 pmsoc_puppet posting in ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png){kind=small}
newcomersHello, everyone! Long time no post! Well, for me, at least 😅
It may still be a little while before I've got all my ducks in a row to make a proper tutorial again, but in the mean time, I finally remembered I already wrote and posted another one-ish on Tumblr 😅 I'm planning to properly organize and re-post it over here at some point, but in the mean time, if you want to know more about uploading and posting images to Dreamwidth, you can check the following links:
Short tutorial without images
Short tutorial with images (I don't think I have to say this, but please don't be rude to OP in this one!)
Bonus: Tutorial by dreamwidth-help on Tumblr for uploading images via email
Speaking of tutorials not by me! Someone in the notes of one of my Tumblr posts mentioned having resources on the Dreamwidth Roleplay scene, and graciously shared them with me.
A Guide to DWRP for Tumblr Users (Google doc)
rp_help
dwrpmasterlist
A dislcaimer from my source: "idk if the google doc is up to date but rp_help is from earlier this year and dwrpmasterlist crowdsources updates monthly."
So it sounds like the communities are definitely solid resources, and a look over the Google doc probably won't hurt, either. Best of luck, future DW RPers!
It may still be a little while before I've got all my ducks in a row to make a proper tutorial again, but in the mean time, I finally remembered I already wrote and posted another one-ish on Tumblr 😅 I'm planning to properly organize and re-post it over here at some point, but in the mean time, if you want to know more about uploading and posting images to Dreamwidth, you can check the following links:
Speaking of tutorials not by me! Someone in the notes of one of my Tumblr posts mentioned having resources on the Dreamwidth Roleplay scene, and graciously shared them with me.
rp_helpdwrpmasterlistA dislcaimer from my source: "idk if the google doc is up to date but rp_help is from earlier this year and dwrpmasterlist crowdsources updates monthly."
So it sounds like the communities are definitely solid resources, and a look over the Google doc probably won't hurt, either. Best of luck, future DW RPers!
ASMR woes - & help ?
Oct. 30th, 2025 01:26 pmkossainever really do much with ASMR even though really want to enjoy because just have such specific needs with this stuff , like honestly lucky if even find one that work .
just today , brain is in weird sludgy state , itch to calm down and trance but too busy to get there without help . right , OK , some kind of unintelligible gibberish ASMR might help - someone's voice , deliberately calm and quiet , but also no meaning that need to focus on .
but quickly find out that also need this to be :
will probably also help to explain why these things problems , so : HOH , and audio process is big struggle that take up lots of brain power , between follow intonation , distinguish sounds and words from each other , fill in gaps that fail to comprehend , and keep up with pace .
when brain is sludgy , need to be able to just turn that shit off and keep off - but anything that mimic ( or is ) true language and speech force back on . this is also why can not just use another real language , even one that have no comprehension of , because brain still pick up on these things .
just today , brain is in weird sludgy state , itch to calm down and trance but too busy to get there without help . right , OK , some kind of unintelligible gibberish ASMR might help - someone's voice , deliberately calm and quiet , but also no meaning that need to focus on .
but quickly find out that also need this to be :
- soft spoken but not all whisper , too much whisper agitate
- low on voiceless plosives ( p/t/k ) and other clicky mouth sounds , those sounds agitate
- not clear enough to distinguish " words " , so nothing that try to mimic language like simlish
- slow and steady with minimal intonation , not try to emulate real casual speech
- solely gibberish ( apart from skippable intro/outro ) rather than switch between
will probably also help to explain why these things problems , so : HOH , and audio process is big struggle that take up lots of brain power , between follow intonation , distinguish sounds and words from each other , fill in gaps that fail to comprehend , and keep up with pace .
when brain is sludgy , need to be able to just turn that shit off and keep off - but anything that mimic ( or is ) true language and speech force back on . this is also why can not just use another real language , even one that have no comprehension of , because brain still pick up on these things .
like people always say
Oct. 27th, 2025 07:41 pmkossaibrain pace around and feel like animal ready to tear out of cage , so ... end up meander around and look at people's decorations . not super big on celebrate halloween personally , but fun to see others get in spirit - decorative times of year always fun times to meander for that reason .
should definitely meander more often , sometimes get so stuck in house just because lack energy for " real " plans , but obviously reach limits that way .
should definitely meander more often , sometimes get so stuck in house just because lack energy for " real " plans , but obviously reach limits that way .
Database maintenance
Oct. 25th, 2025 08:42 am![[staff profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user_staff.png){kind=small}
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dw_maintenanceGood morning, afternoon, and evening!
We're doing some database and other light server maintenance this weekend (upgrading the version of MySQL we use in particular, but also probably doing some CDN work.)
I expect all of this to be pretty invisible except for some small "couple of minute" blips as we switch between machines, but there's a chance you will notice something untoward. I'll keep an eye on comments as per usual.
Ta for now!
dream journal ~ moral lessons or something
Oct. 24th, 2025 10:57 amkossaihave funny dream about rediscover some story that write as kid - unfortunately not real - and was all about like , this magical food dimension that would give anything which want , but have to be properly grateful or else fae would eat in return . this story somehow make into newspaper , too ?